I had all my daycare kids yesterday morning. I had to go out and get some valentines "stuff", so I took 2 daycare kids and Darek with me. I think because of the holiday they were extra excited, which made my shopping trip a little more difficult than usual. But we got it done and came back home. The kids got to playing and I got to baking! I was making cupcakes for Alex's classroom party and then I wanted to make some chocolate-dipped strawberries... just because. So I made about 40 cupcakes, dyed some frosting for the kids to decorate with and got all of the stuff ready to take to the party. Then I started on the strawberries. I don't know why, but making the strawberries is so therapeutic to me for some reason. Baking in general is that way for me. I ended up covering 60 strawberries. My initial plan was to take 1/2 of them to Alex's classroom, but with everything else I was doing for it, I decided not to take them. After all my daycare kids were gone, Darek and I got ready and left for Alex's party. I love the looks on the kids faces as you walk into the classroom with all the fun party stuff. The party was great and I got the kids all hyped up on sugar!
The afternoon was fun. I took some of those tasty strawberries over to some friends and got to talk for a while. It was so nice and I really needed it. Alex delivered a few more valentines to neighbor kids. It was just laid back and nice.
Ryan and I had decided a few weeks ago that we weren't going to do anything for valentines day this year. Mostly because all of our money is going towards our Disneyland trip coming up really soon. And I thought I was just fine with that.... I thought. Ryan had left pretty early in the morning so I was hoping that maybe he'd get home early and we could go to an early dinner or something. It kept getting later and later. It was now getting too late to really go to dinner since we'd be ruining someone else's plans by dropping our kids on them. So that didn't work out. Secretly I was hoping that Ryan was late because he'd stopped off somewhere to get something for me (even though we had discussed this and decided not to). But he had just gotten stuck at work a little late. I was bummed. And now it was 6:30 and I had no idea what to do for dinner and didn't even want to think about it after being in the kitchen all day. So I decided to use some Arby's coupons we'd gotten and get a free dinner from Arby's. Alex and I went and picked up dinner. After we had all eaten we all sat down together and played Rock Band. We hadn't done this in a while and it was so fun! We played until 9:00 (thinking it was only 8:00) and then put the kids to bed.
For some reason I had a huge chip on my shoulder about the day, when truthfully, it had been a wonderful day. But deep down, I guess I had wanted more. After working all day to bake and make things for other people, I wanted something in return. I'm such a selfish brat sometimes. I hate it when I do those stupid "girl" things. Have a conversation about something, make a decision together and then get all annoyed when things go exactly as we had said it should. So Ryan and I watched a little TV (with me hardly talking and acting all annoyed). BTW - just writing this out makes me feel like an idiot for the way I acted. We went to bed and finally talked about what was bugging me. We talked it out and things were totally fine. And then Alex came and joined us in bed... :)
I love my husband. I love him so much! I know he is not the romantic, "surprise me" type of guy... and I am fine with that. I don't need any of that because he gives me so much more. I'm grateful I can talk to him about anything. And I love that we can do this without yelling or really even arguing. And I love that he validates my feelings, even when I'm being a stupid girl.
Anyway, I woke up feeling much better this morning. I'm planning on apologizing to Ryan tonight for my stupidity. And to make things even better this morning, Alex made me something really cute while I was taking a shower this morning. I think he could sense my negativity last night and wanted to make it better. And he did just that.
I'm so thankful for my family. I'm thankful that we'll get to have a whole week + together on vacation without any other distractions. We need a break together and I really can't wait for it! So there is my valentines day 2011. It was wonderful! Oh and if anyone wants some chocolate-dipped strawberries, please let me know. We gave away quite a few, but still have 20 or so left. And I am not going to eat all of them!
